Has anyone watched "Never Been Kissed" played by Drew Barrymore? Is about a journalist who got a second chance to enter her old high school as a research for a story. She was never been cool and hip.. until now. Those who haven't watched can get a glimpsed of the trailer here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d97O5zOBwcw

Okay, continue to me, my life is somewhat like hers. In high school all I really did was study and talk to a few friends who I can reached the nearest. I'm not close or good with those famous and cool and brilliant student. I'm more of having a few friends which I can talk but not exceptionally close like a best friend. As far as I'm concern, I don't have a best friend. Probably my trust issues or the way I was brought up.

Anyway, i'm not smart- a mediocre student who even fail her chemistry and physic subjects, not good at sports, join a few clubs just to waste my time and tried to mingle with some new friends but failed.

And of course, my love life. Zero. I've just recently read a distress 19 years-old girl posting about her not getting kissed. Guess I'm not the only one. However, I'm 21 (soon-to-be), and I've never dated any guy in my life. I do wonder at times, what have I lack or tried different approach and none of it works.

I think how does having a boyfriend feels like. The embrace, the caress, the kiss, the hugs and definitely the clutching of hands. I wonder how it feel to hold a guy's hand, the warmth of his hand filling up mine as we proudly show the world we are in a relationship.


Just a feeling that is in my bucket list. Kinda silly, right?

Signing off

Ciao

xoxo luv sapphirejest