The beast and hunter

Recently I just watched Pacific Rim. I thought it will be a rip-off from Transformer, battleship and battle Los Angeles but it isn't, far from it! It looks more like Code Geass and Gundam Seed where humans enter a big mecha to fight off another mecha in a war between two mechas. But Pacific Rim needs two humans to control one mecha which is called as Jaegers in German as Hunter to fight off the Kaiju in Japanese means strange creature, or beast as used in this movie.

Strangely enough the movie started with the main character losing his older brother in the battle, which is the same as the Battleship and the title only released after an epilogue which is the same as Transformer movies (I believe it was the 2nd and 3rd, not certain about the 1st movie). Hence there is a resemblance from other movies.

I find the storyline progresses really slowly where after they have search the main actor and invited him to rejoin the group. It was good that they give an insight on how the group was reform with bigger and better Jaegers from other countries, after the government intend to shut everything. The fight was intense and a definite watch with spectacular effects that will make your eyes ogle on the screen and jump off your seats!

However, is it just me or have anyone realize that the settings is always raining?

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The Man who is Super

Helloooo my junkies! Hadn't wrote any movie reviews for a long time, was quite busy and lazy at the same time. Well to top it off, I am now a graduate! WOHOOO! Currently searching for a job but the outcome is devastating as I get more rejections than approvals.

Anyhoodle, I'm here to talk about one of the remake of superman movie with a new title "Man of Steel". I was never really a huge superman fan, because I have always laughed at him wearing his undies on the outside but nevertheless, I still watched it.

The movie started where superman came from and how he landed in Earth. That was a good start, but with the frequent flashback, sometimes it is not easy to figure out which is the present and past. The camera is not steady at some point where it moves along with the actors and that causes a slight motion-sickness. Also, the fight is tremendously long, too much action of throwing, flying, fighting, and buildings falling. Moreover, I thought I would have seen the end of the movie where General Zod, the villain surrendered and kneel before Clark Kent (superman), but it wasn't!

Krypton exploded like this

The fight goes on until they enter a building where a family was crouch at the corner of the building and General Zod wanted to kill them with his laser eyes. That's where superman got really angry and break Zod's neck, and yeap that's the end of the General's life. The ending is rather too simple and mundane in my opinion where he just a break of the neck-snap- and he's dead. How easy, why wouldn't he do that in the beginning?

Guess we have to see the fights, superman's emotions with his father, and a little romance with Lois Lane (ohh laa laa) to make the movie worthwhile. However, it was not how I anticipated.

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Accutane victim!

For those who had gone through self-pity and disgusted look from others due to acne problem would probably have gone to resolve with accutane. The problem solver for acne, probably for cystic and eczema as well.

My problem actually started around the age of 18, when I was studying in University in KL. I think the humid weather, bad late night oily snacks and the dirt or dust surrounding the area was the cause of it. As, I never had any crucial facial problems, I never really know how to take care of my face and I used all those mainstream products on the shelves; simple, nivea, olay, clean & clear. I keep changing different facial wash as I think my face was probably gotten used to it and I need to use a more effective ingredient.

The problem became worse around 19 and my both cheek was so hideous I started to cry every night. I stayed away from mirrors and avoid spicy and oily food. I even try to wash my face whenever I reached my uni. I always end up in a sweaty state when I enter the class, it is a horrible site, probably why I was ugly.

Finally my dad couldn't take it any longer, he took me to the dermatologist and they recommended me their own face wash. I used it for half a year and it didn't work. Then only they recommended me accutane, the last resort. The derma did warn me the side effects about probable liver, heart or kidney defects from overdose of Vitamin A, but left out another important part- HAIR LOSS!

After consuming accutane for 3 months, I realize my hair was thinning and was falling more than the usual. I first thought it was because of the chemical I used as I dyed my hair before I ate accutane. So I went insane one day and cut off my hair to my chin length. However my hair never stop dropping, although it is true that a human hair fall averagely 100-150 per day, but mine was excessive and I was not born with thick locks. I visited the dermatologist again and asked her, she mentioned yes, that is one of the side effect.

So now, I mustn't eat any food that contain vitamin A and beta-carotene is one of the major source. In frustration, I searched for a way-out. Some mention that biotin helps, but it could cause breakouts. That means it is a cycle again, and I wouldn't want that to happen! I told myself not to purchase that supplement but rather feed on more vitamin C and E fruits and veggies and also direct vitamin C and E capsules.

I am really hoping my excessive hair fall will stop. Stupidly my tears have gone from my acne to my hair fall. I could never stop crying for myself! I am ridiculously a silly lass.

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That 3 months

It has been 3 months since I last wrote. Many things had happened- both sad and wonderful. To think about it, I realize the time has passed really quickly. I have been here in Bristol for 8 months and I still remember the first day my friends and I landed in Heathrow airport with big huge smile on our faces, and an appetite for adventure. We had absolutely no idea what may come and we were too excited to be living and studying abroad for the very first time!

And so, months gone by, I've submitted my dissertation (FYP) and didn't do very well on it. I have no idea why when I put so much effort into it. I cried bitterly for that few days when the result were out and I nearly lost all hope but manage to pull myself back. Then on the month of April, I had to study for my exams. It was a grueling month as I told myself I must concentrate on my exams and nothing else because I could never sit in my room for whole 2 days, I could die of boredom. Hence it was a tough month for me.

On the day of my FYP submission, I made a new friend. Well basically he is my classmate and we took two same subjects. He was always the first in class and waved to me and my friends whenever we enter the class and I didn't really liked him because he gave the feeling of a nerd and he was like a butt-licker to one of the lecturer. I was quite annoyed with his constant raising his hand to ask questions. He reminded me of Hermione but a guy version and not-so-good-looking one. (I'm just so mean). However, we became good friend and he became my study buddy as he was really patient with my ridiculous questions and weirdly kind too. I could say the quote "do not judge the book by it's cover" is true for this friend.

Finally my exams end at the 22nd May. My friend and I went for an event which the songs they played is not my cup of tea, but I was dragged along to go for that event "Love Save The Day'. However it was quite fun as I enjoyed the day out chilling in the park plus the weather is too gorgeous to missed!

Life is not all fun and crazy. My life is like a rollercoaster, there is ups and down. I believe it happens to everyone. I got a shocking news from my mum that my dad was diagnosed with cancer. They kept it from me because I was having exams and they didn't want me to lose focus. As exaggerating as it sound, I went into depression for two days, I wouldn't want to go out or meet anyone or even eat. I didn't have any strength in me to do anything, I was like a fish out of water. My eyes were like the tap. Tears could fall at any time and stop at any time. I couldn't control myself.

Then, I was too tired to be sad, I finally went out for some sunshine.

Lately, I am just lazing around in my room or talk a short walk around the city and plan for my coming holiday. It is my first ever backpacking experience and I'm partly afraid and partly excited at the same time.

So far, that's what been happening for the past 3 months.

I'll probably write something more interesting rather than my life story. Cheerio

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failure is not the end

"Embrace my fall and move forward".

To be brave physically is easy, to be brace emotionally is the tough one.

Lately, a few minor setback causes me to lose my mind. It may be minor, but the compilation of all the minors had become one huge major problem! I was breaking out and breaking down. For starters was my assignment where I got no help, aside from my lab mate, my supervisor wasn't helping much and he doesn't give a damn to what I really do. I felt hopeless and was almost on the edge.

My mother wasn't helping much either and started giving me lectures about relationship, money advice and some other of her problems which I am really hoping not to bother. I started cutting myself on my left wrist but I was still afraid of getting physical pain, I just used my nails and left some deep red markings- no blood, no mess.

Aside that, I was still in contact with Sebastian, on some occasion for a particular reason but I know if this goes on, I'll really get to like him, and it will be a problem. I just have to block my heart, block my feelings, lock them up and threw them out. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it couldn't, again I have to embrace it and find something to keep myself busy to forget the moment.

However, at times I get lonely and think the most unusual stuff, the sad moment, the stupid moment, the happy moment, the self-conscious moment and finally went into depression and cried myself to sleep. It happens at time, I don't think I'm bipolar, or maybe I'm the minor one (I don't really know). I believe it happened to everyone, just that no one ever said they are.

Due to the fact that I'm susceptible to sweet words, I'm telling myself to close my heart and be cold to all compliments. To never reveal my weakness and never accept sweet words. I'll just pretend to accept with a 'thank you'.

pictures taken from tumblr.

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Chinese New Year party @ Vanity

Another asian party host by Nee Hao magazine. Well kudos to them for a successful event! I realize they must have love DJ Phat because he was also spinnin' at 'Syndicate sexy foam party'.

Anyhoodle, the organizer are probably quite weak in human resourcing skills. Well, the previous event was held on a Thursday and is in Syndicate, which I personally think is quite spacious and it turn out to have such small crowd, it look really pathetic. While this event in Vanity took place on Friday, oh come on, ever heard of TGIF? It was packed with lots of people till the bouncers wouldn't allow people to enter and the coat room was full!

Are you kidding me? This was the first time a coat room was full and everyone had to leave their coats on the coach! That wasn't even the funny part yet. At one point, the DJ asked everyone to squeeze to the back (which was already packed!) to give some space so the break dancers could bust some moves.

AGAIN, ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I'm not in rage, but it is bewildering to have a bunch of break dancers showing their moves in the middle of a dance in the CLUB. I was really surprised! Beside, it was just the basic toprock, handstand, flare and it lasted about 5 minutes.

i was ecstatic 

Oh not to mention the repetition of songs I heard from the DJ. No offense but the songs were somewhat similar with the previous event. I am seriously bored with Gangnam style, it is FRIGGIN ANNOYING! Aside that, other songs were quite alright, probably I missed a few because when I suggested some songs, he mention he had played them. But he played Swedish House Mafia -don't worry child on my request, I was psyched!

Also I met a lad, danced and spent the whole night with him till 6am. Naw I didn't snog him, wasn't tipsy enough to do it. He's really sweet and I feel bad of lying my identity to him. Well, in my opinion, what's the point of telling someone your real name, is not as if they'll remember. I went to party, dance and enjoy the night away.

 quote from swedish house mafia  " WE CAME, WE RAVED, WE LOVED".

pictures from tumblr.


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My first encounter with SNOW

 I was awoke from the sound of an incoming message with two sentences from my flatmate. I quote "Uni is closed. Have you ever seen snow?" I quickly dash towards my window, climbed on my desk and drew my curtain and screamed "OMG SNOW!!!!"

Yes, I sounded like an innocent young child who had never seen snow, which is true because I had never actually seen snow with my own eyes! I was delirious! I opened my window, stuck my hand out to feel the snow, it was so wonderful, each snowdrop felt cool on my skin. I went out of my room to the kitchen, both of my flatmates were there. I told I want to go out now. I want to touch, play, kick and possibly eat the snow!! I was like a mad woman jumping around and squealing with excitement. It was all too much for me, I couldn't control.

Ange and I building snowman

Our snowman! our fingers were freezing lol

say CHEESE!

SNOWANGEL!

Finally, my flatmate and I went out to castlepark, made snowman, I made snowangel (though it wasn't clear) and I imprint my bum on a snow and wrote our names in the snow. But it didn't last! I went out again with another friend to Brandon Hill and it was packed with people sleighing!

Some sleigh with real sleighs while some took plastic bags and another use a broken baking tray, practically anything that could slide down that hill.

I will never forget that day! 18th January 2013 =)



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Recap end of 2012, start of 2013

Well, I supposed if the weatherman can't predict the weather, how would The Mayans predict the end of the world? So I end my 2012 with my aunt and her family in London eating home-cooked food while enjoying the loud and extravagantly fireworks displaying surrounding her place.

Winter break was almost over as I came back to Bristol. I still had a week left before my class starts so, my flatmate invited me to her friend's post-birthday party and we went to a club that we never knew it existed, Mr. Wolf's. I wouldn't want to offend anyone but I had some bad experience.

First of all, the club is really small and the bouncer wouldn't let us in and we had to stand under the rain, in the freezing weather for half hour. When we finally got it, things weren't any better. People are shoving while getting pass. Most of them have a glass of alcohol on their hands, so I was splashed all over and my flatmate was pushed so hard she fell on her bum. Some idiot bloke was pushing another bloke, and my flatmate (unluckily) was behind one of them.

I wasn't lucky either, some really fuck up bloke threw a beer bottle in the air, and it landed on my right ear. It was so painful and my ears was burning hot with stingy sensation! It was ridiculous! I lost my mood and urge my flatmate to return, she agreed and we left- a reminder to ourselves never to return to that club again.

Time pass really quickly, in a blink of an eye is already the month of February!

everyone in the club 

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Friendzone

Guys, quit your complaining about girls 'friendzon-ing' you. It is not the end of the world and you're not the only one. Girls get it too, where I was friendzone a couple of times.

Matter a fact, I only get to know that word when I was in uni, kinda late, I know. I was actually friendzone in my high school (only realized it later) but I didn't really care because my high school is like my drunk history- everyone knows except me.

So, as I was in uni, I had a crush on this guy, and we got quite close and friendly. We were in a dance club, and it was only a small group, so everyone knows everyone (like literally). And there is this beautiful girl in the group, which was graded as 'slut' on some purpose, had attracted 5 guys in the group. Apparently, one of those guys is the one whom I liked.

One fine day, he texted me that he need to talked to me personally, I was surprised, curious but felt quite happy, thinking he may confess or tell me a wonderful secret. Lo and behold, he told me he had feelings for that 'slut' girl and needed my help. No matter, I swallow my disheartened pride and helped him, give some tips and try to make her hang out with him. Somehow they didn't work out and I lost my feelings for him.

So moving on, there's another guy, my friend's cousin, it may seem awkward but we known each other fairly well and long. It may seem as deja vu, he asked me how to woo a girl. Asking every detail to know if it could work out between him and her.

There was a few more guys whom I've helped, but I'm too lazy to write the story as it is always the same.

So guys, girls get friendzone as well, but we don't complain or make a big deal out of it. Honestly, I'm starting to hate that word.

pictures from tumblr, i do not own anything.

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