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Have you ever wake up one day, not knowing what is gonna happen and what you're gonna do? How will the day be like? A repetitive one or an impromptu one that make it interesting? One could never know until they themselves create their own story.

It could always start with "Once upon a day" and it could also end with "They live happily every after". This however is not a fairytale, although I've always prefer fantasy than reality, the reality will always slam in my face. I tend to realize and observed many things in reality and brood about it, giving some idiotic hypothesis and conclusion where sometimes it could be wrong but almost every time I'm right.

I tried not to over look or even over think but it just come naturally, which I really despise it. This makes me more mature than my own age.

I tend to go crazy and spout rubbish every now and then and laugh really loudly. This is the only best way to cover what I really feel inside, disallow others to enter my soul. Despite having some friends and a loving family, I still feel lonely and depress. At time I would like to scream or cry, or just dance till my feet hurts. I want to drown my sorrow but doesn't know how. It is like stabbing into a sponge which leaves no mark.

Smiling and laughing is like a shade to block my thoughts. Covers my constant overwhelming emotional feeling away from people. I smile because I need to and I can.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GBspNPsduA&feature=youtu.be missing piece by David Choi

I do feel something missing in my heart but I couldn't find it.

xoxo luv sapphirejest