Accutane victim!

For those who had gone through self-pity and disgusted look from others due to acne problem would probably have gone to resolve with accutane. The problem solver for acne, probably for cystic and eczema as well.

My problem actually started around the age of 18, when I was studying in University in KL. I think the humid weather, bad late night oily snacks and the dirt or dust surrounding the area was the cause of it. As, I never had any crucial facial problems, I never really know how to take care of my face and I used all those mainstream products on the shelves; simple, nivea, olay, clean & clear. I keep changing different facial wash as I think my face was probably gotten used to it and I need to use a more effective ingredient.

The problem became worse around 19 and my both cheek was so hideous I started to cry every night. I stayed away from mirrors and avoid spicy and oily food. I even try to wash my face whenever I reached my uni. I always end up in a sweaty state when I enter the class, it is a horrible site, probably why I was ugly.

Finally my dad couldn't take it any longer, he took me to the dermatologist and they recommended me their own face wash. I used it for half a year and it didn't work. Then only they recommended me accutane, the last resort. The derma did warn me the side effects about probable liver, heart or kidney defects from overdose of Vitamin A, but left out another important part- HAIR LOSS!

After consuming accutane for 3 months, I realize my hair was thinning and was falling more than the usual. I first thought it was because of the chemical I used as I dyed my hair before I ate accutane. So I went insane one day and cut off my hair to my chin length. However my hair never stop dropping, although it is true that a human hair fall averagely 100-150 per day, but mine was excessive and I was not born with thick locks. I visited the dermatologist again and asked her, she mentioned yes, that is one of the side effect.

So now, I mustn't eat any food that contain vitamin A and beta-carotene is one of the major source. In frustration, I searched for a way-out. Some mention that biotin helps, but it could cause breakouts. That means it is a cycle again, and I wouldn't want that to happen! I told myself not to purchase that supplement but rather feed on more vitamin C and E fruits and veggies and also direct vitamin C and E capsules.

I am really hoping my excessive hair fall will stop. Stupidly my tears have gone from my acne to my hair fall. I could never stop crying for myself! I am ridiculously a silly lass.

xoxo luv sapphirejest