Heart Whisper

she saw him from far ahead and her heart skip a beat. as they almost reach and pass each other, she pretended to look down or stare to another direction to wish that he will noticed her and called her out but unfortunately he was always busy talking with friends or never seem to notice. after they had walked pass, she will stop and look back and smile a little and shake the head, not sure whether to be sad or just wonder what makes her unnoticed by him or thinking if she's mad. they do meet sometimes but is only a "Hi & Bye" and she wishes he will stop her to talk more. but that never happen!

his message was read twice or more sometimes and yet she deletes them just in case of people reading it but it doesn't contain any mushy stuff! every time when he was online, she tries to refrain herself to not start the conversation and tries to be a "hard to get" type and yet she's just so gullible and naive! she even block him in "Facebook" but always wishing to see him online to talk although the conversation is ALWAYS short. those words are enough to make her smile but she wishes the conversation lasted longer.

 she called and message whenever she needs him but he mostly don't reply or pick up the call because he's BUSY but when he's bored, a call or message was always replied. she wonders why does she replied them instantly. sometimes he apologizes that he couldn't reply but it has become a norm that he soon forgot! 

she knew and never asked anymore and just smile whenever she saw him and pretended the message was never sent. she tried to act coldly towards him and just curtsy if she saw him but her heart pounds so hard and her mind was lack of oxygen that she can't think straight hence ended up getting blurred and only reply whatever he said which looked really DUMB! 

she hated it when he never keeps his promises but manage to make up for the guilt. he's sweet in talking but sometimes action are different! she hopes they have never met so her heart won't be crumbling like now. she doesn't understand is this her fault for getting to know him that close or his fault to be kind and make a wrong move? she knows he doesn't like her more than a friend but does she feel the same?

she wants to forget him and never talked although she knows their friendship will be ruin in just a snap over such silly matter but her bleeding heart is not healing. when she doesn't hear any news from him for almost two weeks, one day he comes to find her. she can't adapt the seasonal changes of coldness and warmness from him! 

what does he want from her? and can her heart heal completely? when it is about to heal, he came and peel it off again leaving the wound open but she still have a smile across her face. she feels stupid, vulnerable, gullible and extremely insane by bottling everything inside her! she wishes to stop and turn back time.

she had fun hanging out with him and shared a lot with but she know he still keep many deep dark secrets which she do not wish to pry. she thanked him for the knowledge he had shared and given. anyway after all this,she wish to forget him and everything they did in the past~